The kid.

Down

2011-11-15T12:58:00.000+08:00

to one last breath.

-kead-

But

2011-07-27T16:51:00.001+08:00

I kinda like you. like alot.

A little too much.

Maybe too much.

-kead-

So

2011-06-15T07:12:00.000+08:00

Very Tired.

But I'm coming home. With a big smile on my face.
I'm gonna tell you. I survived hell.
And won.

I promise.

-kead-

讓

2011-06-10T03:54:00.002+08:00

自己失望比別人讓我失望.

更失望.

I let myself down again.

我. 就是那個賣魚的小男孩.

-kead-

Maybe we're not meant to be.

2011-06-08T08:02:00.005+08:00

I can't give you what you want and It's killing me.

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe
That's theres no way out for you and me

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

Sigh. :(

-kead-

領悟

2011-05-06T09:35:00.003+08:00

開始自己去買衣服之後. 才發現原來我一直都在穿名牌. 只是自己一直都把它看得很輕. 沒有去明白父母的感受.
原來. 離鄉背井到莫斯科後. 才發現. 我在馬是多麼的無法無天. 因為有父母罩.
現在爛攤子. 都要自己收拾. 才真正了解. 其實我還沒長大. 只是那時候的我. 自以為無敵了.
感覺自己好像走了那麼遠. 可是其實還是只是在人生的起跑線上徘徊. 不敢往前跑.
才知道原來我一直都把很多事情看得很理所當然.
才知道原來我還不適合當別人的依靠.
才知道我一直都辜負了我父母.
才知道什麼叫朋友.
才知道我好沒用.

-kead-

Second Chance

2011-04-21T08:38:00.000+08:00

Instead of holding you
I was holding out.

And I really treasure my roomies.
They're my bros. But sometimes stuff just.

Doesn't Make Sense Anymore

-kead-

: (

2011-04-21T08:13:00.002+08:00

是我做錯了什麼嗎?

還是我什麼都沒做. 就錯了.

-kead-

If I could change the world.

2011-04-20T21:53:00.001+08:00

I would be the sunlight of your universe.

-kead-

病了

2011-04-17T11:18:00.000+08:00

可是我還是好想你 :(

-kead-

你...看懂嗎?

2011-04-11T11:49:00.002+08:00

多麼華麗的低調.
隱藏的美妙

黃昏下的你我
洵洵的水流聲
儀直沒有說話

Even so.
Your name. It makes me smile.
Your smile. It makes me smile.
You. The thought of you makes me smile.

-kead-

Because

2011-04-11T11:46:00.002+08:00

There's no truth in lies.

Because
When I see your smile
It lights up the day
and makes me wanna say
I wish I could smile for you too.

Because
Simply because.

I need you so much now.
But I can't find the words for it.
And I just can't make you smile.

-kead-

Dawning

2011-04-09T12:16:00.001+08:00

我. 不幽默. 不風趣. 不會逗你開心. 不會所謂的技巧. 我只希望. 我夠溫柔. 才知道. 原來. 我忘了你需要的最可能是我給不了的.

-kead-

洵洵留下了儀滴眼淚.

2011-04-05T00:07:00.001+08:00

I wouldn't know.
Right?
You're already taken. Yet.

:(

-kead-

Testing.

2011-02-08T03:47:00.000+08:00

Show encrypted text

Can't believe

2011-02-05T04:45:00.000+08:00

I grew up to be so useless.

-kead-

But still

2011-02-05T02:38:00.002+08:00

You will always be my family. I know I've said alotta wrong things.

I know this mouth of mine has always gotten me into lotsa shit but.

It just hurts. All I know is I'm worried bout you guys when stuff happens.

Yeah I know, sounds retarded and pretentious. But one day my homebro,

forever my homebro.

-kead-

Family.

2011-02-05T02:27:00.002+08:00

I guess I could spare to lose everything. But losing you guys as a family just doesn't cut it. It was almost everything I ever had closest to a family. There are some things better left unsaid though. I don't know if you guys will take me back. I don't know what's right, what's wrong anymore. I feel so empty now.

I'm sorry guys. I can't help but feel that I could lose any chick in the world. And it wouldn't compare to losing you all. But now that it's all said and done. I'm still alone.

-Kead-

到最後

2011-02-01T23:35:00.001+08:00

我還是擦乾眼淚自己回家. 假裝很瀟灑.

-kead-

Bad days.

2011-01-28T19:18:00.003+08:00

Life hasn't exactly been too straight for me.

Never thought I would have problems with my friends. But now it's over. It's over. Why is it over?

sometimes i wonder at all what this word means. Humans can be so pretentious.

And studying hard. It's fucked up I know. Gimme some time. I'll solve it right.

Because I'm never gonna stop walking till I get there. One day I'm gonna come home with a big smie on my face. And make you all proud.

I'm sorry mum and dad, for throwing everything you ever gave me away.
Sorry to those who actually really cared for me, for neglecting you.
Sorry to those who chose to give up on me, for all the wrong I have done.

It's life. Get used to it. It ain't fair.

-kead-

The only way to keep in touch

2010-12-30T10:29:00.001+08:00

Is thru facebook or blogs now ain't it :)
and since we live in different time zones

I'd say. Keep your blogs updated People!

p/s: that girl is really cute :)))

-kead-

I lie to myself

2010-11-11T06:08:00.002+08:00

You are such a hypocrite, girl.

I don't know if you realise it.
But, I can't really see how I've become invisible to you, you call yourself my friend one day, the next you're long gone.

You tell me. You know who you are.

-kead-

Confidence

2010-08-28T02:04:00.000+08:00

I was always so confident in my abilities. No thanks.

I give up. Sorry my 2nd emotional trashcan.

You always gotta take this bullshit from me.
Sorry.

-kiDDIE-

Departure

2010-08-24T03:20:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry I'm going to drop everything here and go into a void.
Nobody said it was easy. No one ever said it would be this hard.
But now I feel it. I don't like the feeling of tears. They make me feel weak.
And I hate being weak. But now I'm weak almost all the time.
I guess that's just me.

And Acap if you're somehow reading this. Help me compose something will ya.
Departure

Just another face in the crowd
My lips move without a sound
So very clear without a doubt
A sound that could not be drowned

A surge of feelings dropped from the ceiling
A picture drifted down to me
A window opened up still believing
A view outside would show the sea

Walked and I thought and I saw
All of the simple things in life
I walked and I thought and I saw
The past that which I leave behind
Where can I ever find

-kead-

It's either bipolar disorder.

2010-08-10T03:35:00.001+08:00

Or I'm just plain scared.
When people have too much free time,
they think too much, emotions appear from thin air

Especially in the middle of the night. Alone.

-kiDDiE-

在你心中有沒有這樣的一個人?

2010-08-08T05:08:00.000+08:00

你們可能相愛過，你們也可能喜歡著彼此，

但是，為了什麼原因你們沒能在一起？

也許他為了朋友之間的義氣，不能追你。

也許為了顧及家人的意見，你們沒有在一起。

也許為了出國深造，他沒有要你等他。

也許你們相遇太早，還不懂得珍惜對方。

也許你們相遇太晚，你們身邊已經有了另一個人。

也許你回頭太遲，對方已不再等待。

也許你們彼此在捉摸對方的心，而遲遲無法跨出界線。

不過即使你們沒在一起，你們還是保持了朋友的關係。

但是你們心底清楚，對這個人，你比朋友還多了一份關心。

即使不能跟他名正言順的牽著手逛街，你們還是可以做無所不談的朋友。

他有喜歡的人，你口頭上會幫他追，心裡卻不是很清楚，你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困難時，你會盡你所能的幫他，不會計較誰又欠了誰。

男女朋友吃醋了，你會安撫他們說你和他只是朋友，但你心中會有那麼一絲的不確定。

每個人這輩子，心中都有過這麼一個特別的朋友，很矛盾的行為。

一開始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然發現這樣最好。

你寧願這樣關心他，總好過你們在一起而有天會分手。

你寧願做他的朋友，彼此不會吃醋，才可以真的無所不談。

特別是這樣，你還是知道，他永遠會關心你的。

做不成男女朋友，當他那個特別的朋友，有什麼不好呢？

你心中的這個特別的朋友...?是誰呢？

很多的感情，都因為一廂情願，最後連朋友都當不成了，常常覺得惋惜，

可惜一些本來很好的友情，最後卻因為對方的一句喜歡你，

如果你沒有反應，這一段友情似乎也難以維持下去，

這也難怪有些人會因此不肯踏出這一步。

因為這就像是一場賭注，表白了之後不是成了男女朋友，要不就連朋友都當不成了。

有些事不是你能預料的，或許對方不在意，你們還可以是朋友，

但卻已經不如從前的好。也是可惜，也是遺憾！

但還有沒有可能是另一種情況，你可能永遠都不甘心只是朋友.....

Limits

2010-08-06T05:11:00.002+08:00

I, I believe, have always been a person without self-limitations, that's to say boundaries in everything I do. At least to the normal person. I strove to be perfect. But to no avail. Yet I know when I should cease to step forward. And take a good long look before I plunge forward.

Sometimes. I'm just plain stupid in the clutches of love. I mean, who isn't?
For once, I just wanna be normal. And I'm finally gonna try moving on. I mean it.

Signing out,
-kiDDiE-

Just another blog post

2010-08-02T05:58:00.001+08:00

Well. It turns out that I'm still the same old me. Emo day in day out.

3 cheers to being emo =D kudos.
xD

-kiDDiE-

Okay...

2010-07-12T02:14:00.001+08:00

Okay..so what happened to "Imma keep blogging" huh xD
turns out i've been freakin busy and.
thats about it. toodles. =D

-kiDDiE-

I'm gonna keep blogging

2010-06-22T03:15:00.002+08:00

I'm back to the blogosphere. After much delay. It's still a good way of getting things off my mind. Especially when I can't sleep so...Tis' a new post.

College life has been a bearable wreck and...Yea I'm leaving soon. Not to go all sappy about leaving but, Imma miss all my friends here. But I finally get my wish.

Drop and Go.

"Just the thought of you can drive me wild. Oh you make me smile."
- Uncle Kracker "Smile"

-kiDDiE-

I said

2010-05-15T15:59:00.001+08:00

How bout' we getaway? ;)

=O

2010-03-19T13:37:00.000+08:00

i dont know how come i feel so emotionally unstable now.
perhaps... i read something i shouldnt have =(

eh dont screw me for being emo pls. T_T

-kiDDiE-

OMG

2010-03-15T12:32:00.002+08:00

walao eh..why today so boring one...this post is just a random one to make u all come spam. spam la please i beg someone T_T

im so bored because a certain cjk ffk-ed me and momo to go dating lo. >=(

-kiDDiE-

Of countless sheep and...whatever. i dont care anymore.

2010-03-13T00:19:00.002+08:00

在一个烛光晚餐。一张桌子两边，坐了男人和女人。
“我喜欢你。”女人一边摆弄着手里的酒杯，一边淡淡地说着。
“我有老婆。”男人摸着自己手上的戒指。
“我不在乎，我只想知道，你的感觉。你，喜欢我吗？”
男人抬起头，打量着对面的女人。
24岁，年轻，有朝气，相当不错的年纪。白皙的皮肤，充满活力的身体，一双明亮的，会说话的眼睛。
真是不错的女孩啊，可惜。
“如果你也喜欢我，我不介意作你的情人。” 女人终于等不下去，追加了一句。
“我爱我妻子。”男人坚定地回答。
“你爱她？爱她什么？现在的她，应该已经年老色衰，见不得人了吧。
否则，公司的晚宴，怎么从来不见你带她来……”女人还想继续，可接触到男人冷冷的目光后，打消了念头。
一片寂静……“你喜欢我什么？”男人开口了。
“成熟，稳重，动作举止很有男人味，懂得关心人，很多很多......反正，和我之前见过的人不同，你很特别。"
“你知道三年前的我什么样子？”男人点了颗烟。
“不知道。我不在乎，即使你坐过牢。”
“三年前，我就是你现在眼里的那些普通男人。”男人没理会女人，继续说。
“普通大学毕业，工作不顺心，整天喝酒，发脾气。对女孩子爱理不理，还因为去夜总会找小姐，被警察抓过。”
“那怎么……” 女人有了兴趣，想知道是什么让男人转变的。
“因为她？”
“嗯。”
“她那个人，好像总能看到事情的内在，教我很多东西，让我别太计较得失，别太在乎眼前的事，尽量待人和善。
那时的我在她面前，就像少不更事的孩子。
那时真的很奇怪，倔脾气的我，偏偏最听她的话。
按照她说的，接受现实，我知道自己没用，就努力工作。
那年年底，工作上稍微有了起色，我们结婚了。”
男人弹了弹烟灰，继续说着。
“那时，真是苦日子。两个人，一张床，家里的家具也少得可怜。
知道吗？结婚一年后，我才给她买了第一枚钻戒，存了大半年的钱呢。
当然，是背着她存的。若她知道了，是肯定不让的。”
“那阵子，因为烟酒弄得自己身体不好。大冬天的，她每天晚上睡前还要给我熬汤喝。那味道，也只有她做得出。”
男人沉醉于回忆里，忘记了时间，只是不停地讲述着往事。
而女人，也丝毫没有打断的意思，静静地听着。
等男人注意到时间，已经晚上10点了。
“啊，对不起，没注意时间，已经这么晚了。”男人抱歉地笑了笑。
“现在，你可以理解嘛？我不可能，也不会，做对不起她的事。”
“啊，知道了。输给这样子的人，心服口服了！”女人无奈地摇了摇头。
“不过我到了她的年纪，会更棒的。”
“嗯。那就可以找到更好的男人。不是吗？”
“很晚了，家里的汤要冷了，我送你回去。”男人站起身，想送女人。
“不了，我自己回去可以了。”女人摆了摆手。
“回去吧，别让她等急了。”男人会心地笑了笑，转身要走。
“她漂亮嘛？”
“……嗯，很美。”男人的身影消失在夜色中，留下女人，对着蜡烛，发呆。
男人回到家，推开门，径直走进卧室，打开了台灯。
沿着床边，他坐了下来。
“老婆，已经第四个了。干嘛让我变得这么好，好多人喜欢我呀。
搞不好，我会变心呀。
干嘛把我变得这么好，自己却先走了？我，我一个人，好孤单呀……”
男人哽咽地说着，终于泣不成声。
眼泪，一滴滴从男人的脸颊流下，打在手心里的相框上。
昏暗的灯光中，旧照片里弥漫着的是已逝女子淡淡的温柔。

I'm changing my focus...=/...

Sometimes I just feel like dropping everything. And fly off to Russia. and I mean everything. no more familiar faces. nothing to worry about.
Just coz i can't trust anyone.
Anymore ='(.

-kiDDiE-

Haha..guess who just updated =)

2010-03-11T12:13:00.002+08:00

You do know you want to see this place updated so please spam here. =D

btw there will be a post dedicated to certain people who are leaving soon ='(

stay tuned =)

ps: i dropped the emoness =D

-kiDDiE-

Reverted.

2009-12-20T22:47:00.003+08:00

Coz no comments allowed seemed weird again. and. a random pic of the day

hell lar life's bumpy. =(((

-kiDDiE-

Vulnerable. Invincible.

2009-12-11T06:39:00.001+08:00

For the 1st time in my life. I've felt vulnerable.

Vulnerable - Secondhand Serenade

Share with me the blankets that your wrapped in
because its cold outside cold outside its cold outside
share with me the secrets that you kept in
because its cold inside cold inside its cold inside

and your slowly shaking finger tips
show that your scared like me so
let's pretend we're alone
and I know you may be scared
and I know you were unprepared
but I don't care

tell me tell me
what makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
impossible

I was born to tell you I love you
isn't that a song already
I get a B in originality
and it's true I cant go on without you
your smile makes me see clearer
if you could only see in the mirror what I see

and your slowly shaking finger tips
show that your scared like me so
let's pretend we're alone
and I know you may be scared
and I know were unprepared
but I don't care

tell me tell me
what makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
impossible

slow down girl your not going anywhere
just wait around and see
maybe I am much more you never no what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone I can be anything
just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone anything I promise I can be what you need

tell me tell me
what makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that your so sure
please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
impossible

I love you. ♥

WALAO EH!

2009-12-09T15:26:00.001+08:00

I just realised hor. srsly my blog damn emo lor...= =
xD

but here's some bad news T_T
IELTS...no band 9 leh.
only band 8! meh! in ur face la hypocrite! xD

-kiDDiE-

It's 4am.

2009-12-05T03:52:00.002+08:00

And I just can't sleep. I don't know why but it hurts so bad. Hell sounds just like a drama. Aww screw it I'm just emo. I find these, quotes, oddly rejuvenating. As if interlacing with those thoughts none other than mine.

Excerpts from the book 《等一個人·咖啡》

"許多愛情小說開宗明義就說明了, 戀愛最甜美的部分, 就是曖昧. 那種狀況不明, 彼此猜測的過程中, 往往讓人臉紅心跳, 教人連做夢都無法忘記每次說話的緊張."

"寂寞的我在寂寞的夜,
寂寞的想著寂寞的你,
寂寞的風,
寂寞的雨,
寂寞的數著每顆晨星,
而寂寞的夜,
寂寞地泡在咖啡因里面."

how many really feel. I wonder. Forgive me for now. "Of all the things i've lost, I miss my mind the most."

-kiDDiE-

Perhaps.

2009-11-28T01:40:00.000+08:00

Perhaps. It's time to leave. Leave all this behind. And restart somewhere else.
drop my life. drop eveything. i can't bear to leave you behind.

but sometimes it's not a choice i can pick between.
i'm sitting at the fucking crossroads now. damn.

-kiDDiE-

Randomness

2009-11-21T13:45:00.000+08:00

For the sake of being random imma just gonna randomly update on my really random life.
simply put. life's good XD

IELTS band 9!

-kiDDiE-

Bittersweet

2009-11-07T20:01:00.000+08:00

You know how memories are always. and i mean always. bittersweet.
Just hours away from my last day at college. And I'm already missing that life.
It didn't seem all that great. But I came to realise that. Friends are meant to be cherished. Not one should you let slip.

Even though college wasn't that awesome. Heck it was awesome anyway.
Good luck to you guys in all your future undertakings. And sorry for all the wrong I've done.

That done and said. Pay me the money for Elaine's birthday cake!

-kiDDiE-

Worries and whatnot

2009-10-15T10:31:00.002+08:00

I've never doubted my abilities. Turns out I was wrong. One lacking willpower and who is weak in the mind, can never achieve greatness in life. Am I one of them? Maybe I am. Plain weak weak weak. No focus. Lack of resolve.

Do you ever wonder. When you were still primary or high school students. Life was damn easy. No worries. But now college and U. It's like your whole miserable life depends on it. And those bloody grades.

Grades aren't a real evaluation of how good you are. It's only how good you memorise things. But oh well. I guess it's just not me.

so random.

-kiDDiE-

雨過天晴•思戀

2009-09-21T06:24:00.002+08:00

Long has it been since i wrote a poem and I would like to write one now. =)

The Sun after the Rain.

Here comes the Rain
in droplets so fine
that pitter patter against the window pane
upon the midnight chime

I'm not sleeping right now
and the night sky's beautiful
It's just like somehow
it just beckons me to stay awake, just like you.

Here comes the Shower
in shards of hail
that crash down onto the rooftops dear
upon thrice the clock's strike it prevails

I'm still not sleeping
coz it's still so beautiful
and now it's becoming
something that I might actually like to do.

And then, the silence, a sound so slight,
that ensues after a downpour
and the first rays of sunlight,
shine onto the floor

It's a new day and I still can't sleep
coz it's still so beautiful
and now the sky's awfully blue and deep
and I can tell you I miss you.♥

Thank you =)
-kiDDiE-

When A girl....

2009-09-04T23:55:00.000+08:00

When a GIRL is quiet... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not fine at all.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....

Find a guy ..

who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

i stole this from ShuSim's Blog. / \

-kiDDiE-

耶～

2009-08-17T12:13:00.002+08:00

久違的假期終于到了- -+
well all this stress has been getting to my head and it feels really good to let some steam out. sorry I've neglected to mention why I've been missing for so long.
I don't think too many people read this now though. 0.0 do you still read it? yea, don't bother looking that way, I'm talking to you*points*
okok point is

5 reasons why i went AWOL
1. Exams
2. Activities
3. Goddamned assignments
4. Lack of Sleep
5. Mabinogi 囧

you must be thinking "what's this mabinogi?o.O"
Well, It's a game that came from korea. But's now all over the world.
BUt my point here. Is not the game. It's what happened in the game.
Well that's for another time. =D

All in all. I'm back. Expect more from my blog xD
p/s do me a favour and keep my blog alive?0.0

-kiDDiE-

Gracefully Fluid, Fluidly Graceful

2009-07-02T12:01:00.003+08:00

I'm home. It's been a week.

But I'm here to blog about something very very very impressive.
Who out there's heard of Yiruma's "River Flows In You"

And wowie...I actually have a classmate who plays that as well as, if not better than Yiruma. Her playing was so graceful, so fluid, yet so powerful. It draws your soul in to hear and witness a live performance. I was drawn in. =D..so impressive

It is soooooo good. GOSH. I will post the video some other time. simply because this is a TAYLOR's Comp and a retard next to me is trying to click the tiny x in the top right corner = =.

toodles.

-kiDDiE-

Scum.

2009-06-21T01:55:00.002+08:00

I am. I had to screw my mid year up. Nuff' said. I'm f*cked.

2B's 2C's! and WTF 1D
u simply cannot imagine the impact this will have on my year end results.

haha.perhaps they are right. I am useless.

Already 18. Officially.

2009-06-01T01:44:00.002+08:00

I'm 18. and 1 day old. Thanks to the well wishers. I could count them with both hands though. anyway. I'm happy. I got your wish. and that's all that matters. thank you. =)

EDIT: LOVE YOU GUYS. YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME! THERE WERE COUNTLESS WISHES AFTER ALL. I'M SO GLAD. THANKS =D. YOU ALL BRIGHTEN MY LIFE.

-kiDDiE-

So Sorry.

2009-05-30T15:49:00.002+08:00

I indirectly or directly managed to hurt someone's feelings. By making fun of her name. I am so sorry for that. If you see this post, know that I didn't really mean it. Sorry.

Moral of the story is. Do not make fun of people's names. you never know.

-kiDDiE-

Back. From the High Ground.

2009-05-25T00:10:00.002+08:00

Absent from this blog for more than 2 weeks? Well. I doubt anyone knows I've been away from KL for 3 days. I'm so insignificant. Point is. REACH trip to Cameron. Regional Environmental Awareness Cameron Highlands had a reforestation trip for us Taylor's students. 3 day to night trip.Exhausted. 1st day. On the van. I saw an angel. oh my god. Point is. She was divine. Now I'm enveloped by guilt. dammit. ok. enough EMO.

Day 1. We departed for it. standard trip procedure. check in after arrival. (btw, prior to arrival, the way there was nauseating== BLERK! *pukes*)accomodation was pretty nice, meals were standard fare. that's about it. standard procedure.

Day 2. Trek. wahaha. tired out. ok not really. but after so long of non-exercise, fats accumulated to become a burden. T.T. skipped pasar malam. and hence skipped the chance to see the goddess once more.

Day 3. EAT. OMG I'm gonan be FATTER FATTER FATTER. cham lo. ok lar. maybe i'll just eat lesser at home?

ok. this is one lousy blog post. But. People. Save this earth. For every piece of paper u waste. It takes a day to grow. everyday. we waste millions of trees. how long is that?
and food as well. ever wondered how many african kids the plate of food u are gonna dump will feed? 3? 10? 20?50?

so please, save the earth. don't litter, don't wasste food. and save the earth by recycling. =)

-kiDDiE-

To my parents.

2009-05-10T12:08:00.001+08:00

Happy Mother's Day. Mum. I know that I should be the ever filial son that flies high and finally comes back down to pick you up. But, I've failed your expectations. Forgive me for anything I've ever done wrong.

It's a weird feeling. I don't feel close at all to you and dad. But I hope you understand. I love you both very much.

On mother's day, you should be giving mom and dad all your love. and father's day too. make that every single day you spend with your parents. cherish these moments. =)
wat are you giving mom on mother's day?

-kiDDiE-

I'm back. and I feel ok now.

2009-05-09T03:01:00.002+08:00

Here was a poem that I wrote for our mentor for teachers day. somehow no one liked it. do i suck at this? they took some other guy's poem. haiz.

this one's mine.
Dear Ms. K,
You are the apple of my eye,
the firefly, lighting up the night sky,
our dearest. beloved bio teacher,
mentor, we would have no other.

Kind and caring, ever keen,
to repeat what is termed a gene,
the epitome of endless patience,
your voice alone speaks eloquence.

Even when it starts to rain,
during lessons, it is the bane,
which causes our concentration to wane,
you would save us by calling our name.

On this very very special day,
all of G5 wishes to say,
in every single possible way,
we love you alot, madam K.

how isit? is it good? or does it suck. haiz.

-kiDDiE-

Kiss The Rain. It Heals.

2009-05-03T09:24:00.002+08:00

Do you hear the track playing from the moment you enter this page?
How did you feel? I have to thank Jun Bao for this track. I found it on his blog. And I have to say I'm rather fond of Piano Tracks.

Listen to it. I downloaded the track at 12:00 am yesterday. And played it. again and again and again and again. The rain fell at 3:48am. The sight was beautiful. When my friend told me. "Hey, It's raining now." I sat by the window again. Listening to the tune, starring into the blurry night.

It made me cry once. But I don't care. Somehow crying soothes your soul too.
It lets out the emotions you've built up inside. Those emotions which you have never dared to release in front of anyone else. It was just so....magical.

I'm sorry mum and dad. I'll work harder from now on. And to those I have wronged. Please forgive me. It's a promise. And to you. You know who I'm talking about. I'll be back here after 5 years. maybe 6 or 7. So I hope you don't forget me.
Good Bye.

-kiDDiE-

Whole New Look

2009-05-02T13:22:00.002+08:00

Well, now my blog has a whole new layout...nice?
Well to the topic, I guess what I've been writing recently has not been very interesting at all. So in compensation for all your support. Here's an interesting thing I found today. Hope It's interesting >"<.

Haha. Practically, I don't see why we shouldn't have interesting lives at all. Look at all the other people sitting in the office. Would you rather be one of those hanging outside the window to make something happen (not suicide, mind you) or one of those safely typing in the office, waiting for working hours to end?
So be like me! Be Special!
p/s:At least I think I'm special because I am special. xD

-kiDDiE-

Can't stop wondering

2009-05-02T01:12:00.002+08:00

I've been wondering xxx....
I've been wondering....what a wonderful phrase.
Don't you guys ever wonder sometimes. What are the purposes of being in this world?
I mean. Do you think about your future. And look back at the past. And then flip through some photos. only to remind yourself of how retarded you were.
It's like a lapse. We humans are a wonderful breed. We never forget. The memories are always in our mind. Just depends on whether u take the time to retrieve them or not...
Look. There's that shining star. The next moment it fades.
Don't we all have the same weird habits. I mean. Everyone of us has weird habits that seem to calm us down in one way or another.For me. It's going out to the field in Central Park. lying down. looking at the stars and the people who pass by. It gives me the time to stop thinking. Now only I know. I'm one of those ever tired people. But I know. I am unique. Special. The word, Genius.

forgive me. But I really don't understand how the retards in my class manage to score their A20s.

-kiDDiE-

Argh. R.E.T.A.R.D randomly though.

2009-05-01T11:46:00.003+08:00

I'm starting to feel alot like a retard. really retarded. I went and made myself a sig. and lol. retarded sig.

but here's some of the earlier sigs i created using photoshop. they're quite damn nice. i think. >"<

here's the one when i was still a dota player. full-time. and another one of the class-blog header.

anyways. signing out of this random post

A20

2009-04-28T17:11:00.003+08:00

A20. here i come. just u wait. I know up till now i don't have any A's yet. but just you wait. I'm gonna score. And u're all gonna kneel. That's right, at my feet.
A20s. wait for me. I'll make it there.

And Screw the assignments. I'm gonna own them. O yea. I miss you dear. Even though u don't miss me.

-kiDDiE-

Eloquence

2009-04-26T17:18:00.002+08:00

Again, I feel that feeling of uselessness....even though now my voice speaks eloquence, my soul trembles at the lies that ensue.

I'm no genius. Why lie to myself. I'm overweight. I'm not handsome. My grades are not perfect. I'm not a pro at making the girl i like happy. Don't even mention pro. I'm not even half the beginner.

I wonder I ever came into this world. To be scorned. To be belittled. Not by my anyone else, but myself. I can't help feeling useless once in a while. Sometimes even helplessness swarms in and engulfs me into that void.

Pray tell. who's gonna tell me what I'm good for anymore?

-kiDDiE-

Every time you "lol"...lol(Ooops)

2009-04-20T16:00:00.000+08:00

this is wat happens every time you lol. literally.
lol.

happiness comes in various forms. whether u are able to see it in its many guises lies in ur own mentality. Me. I've seen few. But the few that I've seen. They're priceless. What about you?

-kiDDiE-
p/s: stop "lol"ing guys...it's bad internet speech. seriously.

You win some and you lose some

2009-04-16T20:45:00.002+08:00

Today I was down with an insanely high fever....It hit 46C....and LoLxz...you could've fried an egg on my forehead....today was a bad day....the fever was the worst when I was doing the practical exam write-up....not exactly what you want to happen to you.....

Good thing today is....I just ordered a New DELL Laptop!!!WEE!!! It's quite worth it for 2900 bucks ler..... don't you think?
Well, you win some and you lose some. There's no real definition as to wat is right and wat is wrong. Well. Randomly posted. I miss my dear quite some. haha....good night folks. My brain is damaged by the heat...xD

-kiDDiE-

Cheng Yang's 19th birthday

2009-04-12T23:59:00.003+08:00

Yesterday.

We went all the way to Setapak to the restaurant where Ah Gu worked at. >"<>"<....damn cold....

however i took a stone bowl meal..... as shown in the picture...pretty good for 18+ bucks and a glass of tea..nice meal....Celebrated Cheng Yang's birthday...

And that's about it. Kinda emo today.

Picture of the whole crew, from left, me, Xuan Qi, Hsiao Wei, Dou Ding, Cheng Yang, PeiChee, YouPing, AhGu and Big Sis Sze. The guy in white standing, is Jun Yen.

signing out,
-kiDDiE-

For the Lost Soul

2009-04-09T17:06:00.003+08:00

Last night, at about 12am, i received a message from a friend.
"Someone, from our college, died just now at my condo."
I was shocked. And she even said that he was one of our friend's friend.

I went to bed with messed up thoughts.
I was totally horrified when I found out that he was, in fact, a guy I actually knew.
And he was a really nice guy.

The article from The Star Online is here. It was really sad. He had a bright future. Just like everyone of us. Only, his flame was extinguished before it could burn its' brightest. May You rest in peace, Aaron. My prayers are with you. Farewell.

The Article

-kiDDiE- who's feeling really sad now. and wonders why fate plays such cruel tricks.
p/s: To those who read this post. May I ask for one minute of your time. Please, mourn for him. For he was a good person. May he rest in peace.

of Hypocrisy...and ESL

2009-04-05T17:12:00.002+08:00

Damn.
I repeat, Damn.

I'm stuck at home, alone, and I still have one more ESL draft to go....ARGH!!!
The stupid lightning struck twice and twice I forgot to save.
I had to re-do twice...so I'm doing it now...T.T....

There are kids dying of starvation in Third World Countries, but we are here, tapping away at the keyboard, wasting resources, living the good life, yet we still complain. Have any of you ever thought of these kids when you were eating a hot meal, sleeping on your soft bed? Doing good is a way of nurturing your spirit, at least, that's what I think. Try attending the 30-hour famine. It's a first step towards doing good. It's held yearly and it's a gesture of kindness. so why not?anyone interested?

By the way, have you ever felt angry at yourself, just because of something someone else said before?
I don't know, but I have. and it's driving me nuts. Why do people say I'm a hypocrite when I try to do a good deed? Is being a good guy wrong? I don't understand. When I'm not a good guy, you all take me as an a-hole...now, I'm trying my hardest to be nice. and, you guys call me a hypocrite. Now who can tell me, what does it take to satisfy you? I'll gladly take any criticism.

-kiDDiE- p/s: "Am I really a Hypocrite?"

I miss you so much...I look forward to seeing you on your birthday...=)

April's Fool

2009-04-02T19:12:00.002+08:00

This is a belated post....and what the heck...my 100th post is on a joke played on me...>"<

here's the story...on the 1st of April 2009. 2 of my friends, mainly GAYe and albert, played a really really clever joke on me....LoLxz...i didn't even notice until today....
Our conversation went something like that
GAYe: eh..dei did u noe that day ar.
kiddie: wat day o?
GAYe: neh. april's fool ar.
kiddie: o. wat about it?
GAYe: did u know we played an april's fool joke on u that day?
kiddie: LoL. ==
albert: yea. we pretended to be mad at u.
GAYe: that's why i was so damn pissed off at u taking my textbook.
kiddie: whatever. !@#$%^&*(censored)

this is a stupid post...>"<..done without thought....don't even blame me for writing such meaningless stuff...i'm so busy yet i still blog...>"<

-kiDDiE- who's dying from assignments

T'was a good day today

2009-03-31T22:07:00.002+08:00

Today was a pretty good day...the sun shone bright today!!haha...

And I'm reaching my 100th post today..so...yea..haha it's a poem...I think I did pretty well in chem today...and I think I am really getting better at chem and I wanna be more hardworking from now on....(whatever...that's a lot of "ands")

And Dear replied me today!!the joy of receiving her messages was like that of a bird knowing the arrival of spring!!!

Rainbow

The sky was dark, covered in a veil
of depression, and the air was simply stale
then the rain fell upon my endless sorrows
that gushed over me, a tide of woes

The droplets of water turned into a storm
whirling and turning, a dervish-like form
Dancing upon my distressed frown
In that rainstorm, how I wished I would drown

Then that feeling of melancholy
turned into that of ecstasy
stopped, the rain, what would follow
was that of a resplendent rainbow

You, my dear, epitome of elegance
graceful as the ballerina in dance
exquisite as the a mare on a grass plain
sublime as the rainbow after the rain

T'was a good day today
My feelings were gay
to know that tomorrow won't always be better
but a better tomorrow will always be there

-kiDDiE- who wants to dedicate this to his friends. and his dear of course =)

Genii around me

2009-03-29T00:52:00.003+08:00

At this time of the day i would have thought that everyone would be sleeping....with the exceptions of the rare people on earth. Be they genii, night stalkers or just people suffering from insomnia like me....

There was a random girl called Dxxxx(has the same name as the late princess) who came and said "hey" to me on msn...LoL. was i surprised. A genius is talking to me. LoLxz
whatever. the point here is. she was one of those who went for the JPA scholarship, scored 12A1s, and stays up late to study. can u say that is not a genius? a special one at that.

actually this post is so random i can't even comprehend why i did this. maybe just to annoy that particular little girl. haha. anyway. good night folks. signing out.

-kiDDiE- who got a good laugh out of chatting with the genius girl.
and misses Dear.(hope u will stop ignoring me soon)

Hate

2009-03-27T23:37:00.005+08:00

I hate this world
I hate myself
I hate college
I hate my life
I hate my "friends" in college
I hate someone who keeps on sticking to me in college(GIVE ME MY LIFE BACK!!!!)
I hate the "Evil Eye" in college
I hate myself
I hate this self-centered world

This world has become so damn self-centered...no one really cares about what happens to the next person beside you...Betrayal...Lies...Backstabbing...damn those f*ckers....i don't know what I was thinking...being a good guy...A GOOD GUY!? does that even exist in society now? the answer is so damn f*cking obvious...big fat NO!

who can even survive being a good guy in this world? Nowadays, "Justice and fairness" requires alot of money and influence....Yea right...just people are most probably hypocrites who want to gain your trust and then kick you down...and good ppl are most probably those who want to get something out of you....that's the reason they're good to you....
haiz...I just hate myself...

I'm like a f*cking retard....typing away at the keyboard on a blog that no one reads....no wonder no one reads my blog....I'm useless....and i use too many profanities.....>"<

Somehow, I don't know why....why do you ignore me...do you hate me? did I do something wrong? Was it something wrong i said? Can anyone give me any answers? I really hate myself now...

-kiDDiE- who's actually a really screwed up *ssh*le.....

Randomly Done

2009-03-22T23:09:00.004+08:00

[x] Gotten detention. (被罰留堂)
[x] Gotten your phone taken away in class. (上堂被收電話)
[ ] Gotten suspended. (被人踢出校)
[x] Gotten caught chewing gum. (被發現食香口膠)
[ ] Gotten caught cheating on a test. (比人捉出貓)
Total: 3

[ ] Arrived late to class more than 5 times. (遲到超過5次)
[x] Didn’t do homework over 5 times (冇做功課超過5次)
[ ] Turned at least 3 projects in late (遲交project 3次)
[ ] Missed school cause you felt like it. (因為想唔返而唔返學)
[x] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class. (笑得太大聲比人趕出課室)
Total :2

[x] Got your mom / dad etc. to get you out of school. (要媽/爸由學校接返屋企)
[x] Texted people during class. (上堂send message)
[x] passed notes. (上堂傳紙仔)
[x] Threw stuff across the room. (喺課室將野飛尼飛去)
[x] Laughed at the teacher. (笑老師)
Total :5(WTH!?)

[ ] Pulled Down The Fire Alarm. (禁消防嗰個警報器)
[x] Went on Myspace , Facebook , Xanga , etc. on the computer at school.(上電腦堂上Myspace , Facebook , Xanga等等既網站)
[x] Took Pictures during school hours. (喺返學時間映相)
[x] Called someone during School hours. (返學時間打電話比人)
[x ] Listened to an iPod , CD , etc... During class. (上堂聽歌)
Total : 4

[x] Threw something at the teacher (用野掟老師)
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission. (冇老師批准下離開課室)
[x] Broke the dress code. (唔跟校規規定既衣著)
[x] Failed a class test. (小測唔合格)
[x] Ate food during class. (上堂食野)
Total : 5(>"<..)

[x] Gotten a call from school.(學校打電話比家長)
[ ] Couldn’t go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.(因為行為表現差而冇得去學校既旅行)
[x] Didn’t take your stuff to school. (冇帶野返學)
[x] Gotten a detention and didn't go. (比人罰留堂但冇去)
[x] Stuck up your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking.(當老師冇留意時向佢舉中指)
[x] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear. (上堂大聲爆粗比老師聽到)
Total : 5

[x] Faked your parents signature (冒簽)
[x] Slept in class. (上堂訓教)
[x] Cursed at a teacher to their face (咀咒老師)
[x] Copied homework (抄功課)
Total : 4

MULTIPLY BY THREE : 29x3=87%

Tag your friends.
Then Repost this & put the Title as "I screwed up -- % of my teenage life"(which i don't care)

feel free to play if you're interested.
and I managed to screw 87% of my teenage life up...

-kiDDiE-who's feeling screwed...duh...

Time Flies

2009-03-22T04:11:00.002+08:00

Time Flies....really it does....It's already March....nearing April for the year 2009....before you know it I'm already done with my finals and going to IMU....I really do hope I can get in....some things that a doctor told me made me reconsider about studying medicine....coz i suddenly lost all confidence in myself.....

With my meager 3 As....i must have the lousiest SPM results in my college class...dammit....I really hate myself for always not doing my best when required.....I manage to screw up every moment of my life for myself....

O yea by the way...anyone from CH interested in helping me form a 5sYi reunion?
I'll try my best to bring those outside of CH together. please call me or sms me if interested.....or u can also leave a msg here...

And my dear is totally not replying my messages at all...is something wrong?
with me?

-kiDDIE-

Jogoya on the 16th of March

2009-03-19T23:38:00.003+08:00

Well...frankly speaking..jogoya didn't really meet my expectations...it was a rather disappointing experience...but it was good...for 58 bucks per person...It was worth the experience....me, my family and my parents' friends went together...due to network problems...I'll just post the pics some other time...xD...but here's one...of me with mama.

Cheers to great food!!xD
-kiDDiE-

Random Musings again...and again

2009-03-16T08:25:00.003+08:00

First day of school all over again...damn tired...nothing much....just to see if anyone's updated their blogs...coz this seemed like the sh*ttiest holiday ever.....

It was a boring holiday and this is a short post....so that's why it's so damn random...ok?
sorry I tend to get cranky when i lack sleep...>"<

-kiDDiE-

My SPM results

2009-03-13T00:36:00.003+08:00

which are really bad....
They turned out to suck so much I'm really starting to hate myself...A lot....
even My Dear got 4 As....
Me...I only have 3....
as follows...

BM B3
English A1 [1119 : A1]
Math A1
Add Math B3
Chinese Language B3
Chemistry B3
Biology B3
Physics B3
EST A2(WTF!!!???)

Moral Studies C6
Sejarah D7

THEY SUCK DON'T THEY?
And To Yozer...c'mon..I'm not emo for nothing huh?
at least u have nothing to be emo about..with your 9 As.....

-kiDDiE-

My 90th post

2009-03-08T19:11:00.002+08:00

which means I will be writing a poem...every 10xth post will be a poem...this one is for my dear....and i miss her...

I've been such a troublesome bother
to the extent that my dear dear dear
is mad at me and i fear
that she will ignore me forever

Luckily the sky gave me a second chance
to redeem myself but only once
cause how much i want to show
this poem to my dear dear so

she's like the heaven where angels fly
and just that little bit so shy
and then if I were to die
would she shed a tear or cry?

so i Love her with all my heart....until the day that you are ready....I shall wait..

-kiDDiE- who misses her

Party Day

2009-03-07T22:30:00.002+08:00

The SAM Fiesta that Day
I can only say
I would rather not be there
for it's not something i would care

The fiesta was a rather boring place to be at....coz i couldn't fit in....

I'm a rather useless one there....

And I miss my dear...

-kiDDiE-

REAL Stressed out....again

2009-02-25T10:18:00.001+08:00

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==

ok this is idiotic....I'm so stressed out I have to de-stress...I have a feeling that I didn't do very well in Bio...T.T

but i Aced MATHS!!!Cheers...xD

WHEN CAN I FINALLY DE-STRESS!!?!?!?!??!
pls ignore this post...it's just a random musing...

-kiDDiE-

A song to sing

2009-02-18T02:55:00.003+08:00

Anyone interested in hearing me sing? I mean....accompany me somewhere someplace where I can sing to my hearts content...preferably someone who plays music?xD....nah just joking... Please apply in the comments page for this post. xD

I just wanna sing...and hand in my assignments by their deadlines...then life would be almost perfect..
coz i still need good grades...so I'll keep working harder..TOWARDS THE TOP!!!!!!!!!

I'm waiting for my dear dear dear....=)...no matter how long it takes. I'll be right here.

-kiDDiE- who misses you. I hope you know. good night. I just finished ESL. and i'm tired.miss you...

I feel sad

2009-02-14T01:03:00.003+08:00

Because I miss her so much...
and the problem with that is...
I can't do anything about it...

I am such a Failure...

Sadness envelops my very being, and I'm so depressed because even though I'm scoring well above 70 in my exams, I'm still being left at the back of my class.
What the Hell...Scr*w it....And I lost my seat in the council...haiz....

What a bad year...really scr*w myself more..and I've been so tired...gaining weight....

I really am such a Failure...
haiz...

-kiDDiE-

2009-02-12T16:28:00.002+08:00

1.我的大名：kiDDiE (sorry i can't type chinese>"<)

2.我的生日：31-5

3.谁传给你的:leelee

4.说出五个好朋友:大家都是我的好朋友

6.生日想要得到什么礼物：Just one simple "Happy Birthday." from her would suffice.

7.近期开心的是: nothing. I've been so busy i don't even have time to be happy.

8.近期压力大的是：Schoolwork.

9.未来想做什么啊：制作人, singer, medical doctor( the list is endless)...in a nutshell, i wanna be a guy who can do anything successfully.

10.有没有喜欢的人：有

11.同学会要回去找老师吗：会

12.跟谁出去最幸福: Friends&爱人

13.如果你的两个好友吵架了：Calm them down and let them rethink what they have done...Or just let them rot if they prove too troublesome...only after going thru a harsh experience can u truly understand friendship.

14.跟情人出去最想去哪：去哪里都一样

15.圣诞节要做啥：Stay Lonely. or do some work. school work, of course.

16.最想跟谁过圣诞节:当然是家人&爱人,朋友

17.有没有起床气：No. Unless my brother annoys me on purpose, which happens 9/10 times.

18.有几个兄弟姐妹：一个弟弟一个妹妹

19.最喜欢的一首歌(女生的) : Love Story

20.最喜欢的一首歌(男生的)：Tears Don't Fall

21.喜欢什么颜色：黑白

22.上厕所会不会先冲水：Yup.

23.爱不爱我：你是谁?!

24.喜欢男生还是女生：>"<.

42.最想大声说什么: F*ck off!!!!@#$%&*

43.半夜敢不敢自己上厕所：Yea..I'm used to staying up late.

44.上厕所会不会脱裤裤：>"<..

46.谁很欠打：惹我的人

47.现在很迷什么：Her.

48.睡相很差：>"<...

49.现在的时间：4.34PM

50.是否痛恨传给你点卷的人：Yes!!!(xD Joking la!!)

51.体重多少：Nearing 100...i must keep fit liao...OMG!!

52.今天天气：雨

53.你怀孕了吗：>"<....

54.你若中乐透最想做什么：Donate to charity. Well, i'll leave 1 mil for my self, 1 mil for my family and 1 mil for my friends.xD

55.大学生一定要玩的活动：出去蒲~~

【點名人物】 (不分先後)
No one...

1.是誰傳給你這份問卷的：???answered...refer to top.

2.你們認識多久呢：not long ago...i think...

3.你覺得他(她)對你來說很重要嗎：still ok.

4.你與他(她)的關係是：朋友

5.請問他(她)的興趣是：爱潮流时尚,爱看杂志,贵妇爱的她都爱!腾腾,黑金,仲仲....

6.你覺得他(她)的個性如何：i don't really know...

7.他(她)在你心目中是幾分：99.9999999999 coz i don't like seeing two zeros...xD

＊睡覺前第一件事：刷牙,洗脸

＊起床前第一件事：睁开眼睛

＊你的偶像是：Me, myself and I.

＊你喜歡的季節：Winter.

＊你打工過嗎：有

＊打工次數：2

＊你想去的國家：Japan

＊你討厭什麼樣的個性:Fakers who wear masks

＊你會抽菸嗎：不会

＊你會喝酒嗎:会

＊你常哭嗎:有

＊你常笑嗎:是

＊你喜歡去哪兒玩：好玩的都ok的

＊去玩時喜歡一個人去嗎：sometimes i'd rather be alone.

＊是假日時你都睡到幾點：睡到自然醒

＊今天的天氣是（晴雨陰）：雨

＊朋友和情人你會選擇：情人

＊機會和命運你會選擇：机会(中庸的人懂得把握机会!)

＊你很自戀嗎：Very.

＊你有穿過耳洞嗎：no

＊這問卷多不多：多

＊要怎樣才能讓自己過的好一點：stop being so depressed.

＊喜歡吃冰嗎:超喜欢

＊現在幸福嗎:OK啦~

＊最在乎哪幾個朋友：都在乎~

＊房間裡最重要的東西是什麼: Homework and my student ID.

＊最常夢到什麼：什么都有...大多数是和现实生活有联系的!

＊男人精神出軌要不要原諒他：>"<...

＊你認為人生的意義是什麼：要帮助别人(agreed)

＊你知道嗎？（看你們怎麼回答！）:你知不知道?你知不知道?我等到花儿也谢了~(AGREED!)

＊剛才聽什麼歌: If I Lose you Now - (kiDDiE)Wrote this meself...xD

-kiDDiE-

Depression

2009-02-05T16:15:00.004+08:00

Argh wat a bad week this has turned out to be...
My dear is ignoring me....I didn't manage to get into the SAM student council....
I managed to fail my LAN test....and I fell asleep in class quite a number of times already....

What frustrated me most was the fact that I failed to even be shortlisted by the teachers in charge of the SAM student council....not even a vote??WHY???
I'm no failure....this is the 1st time in a long time that my abilities have been rejected.....i simply cannot comprehend.....sh*t....

And my dear...why do you have to ignore me?? I do not understand..really....But...

I still cannot CRY...
<<Tears don't Fall - Bullet for My Valentine>>

Tell me what to do now....haiz....
-kiDDiE-

The Joy(?) of my Hols

2009-01-29T18:37:00.002+08:00

My holiday has been pretty joyful(?) and eventful(>"<) up until today.
With tons of phonecalls bearing well-meant(?) wishes and angpows crammed full(?) of money...
I have to say. I am a very lucky(??) little boy.

But Rejoice for friday, saturday and Sunday!!!
Full of funfilled activities!!
Hope I will be able to access the internet to keep you guys posted on these activities...seeing that my blog's teetering on the brink of destruction...Please...don't let my blog die....ok guys?
until then....ciao...=)

-kiDDiE-

Tag

2009-01-19T19:13:00.002+08:00

第一 : 被点者请在自己的 BLOG 里写下答案.
第二 : 请传另外十位的人.=) ( Too Bad...I can't do this.)
第三 : 传阅人‘请在于这十位当中斗留言版’ 告知他(她) 被点名了.(Nope)
第四 : 这当中的十位的人‘不得拒绝’.(Nope either.)
第五: 被点者‘请注明被谁点了’ 在哪接到‘在传给下十位’.(Definitely not)
第六: 这些被点名者,你们被点会得到祝福‘并且愿望会实现’ 也会得到幸福.(Yes. Indeed. But this applies to anyone who reads this.)

^^‘幸福套餐’开始咯!!!
^^幸福套餐 NO。1♥

01 你的绰号 :kiddie
02 年龄 :17
03 生日 :31/5
04 星座 :The Untrustworthy and genius Gemini
05 兴趣 :聊天,唱k,看戏,睡觉,erm....and reading as well....
06 专长 :Talking crap...and bad words(but I'm using less now)

幸福套餐 NO。2♥
01 你有没有喜欢的人? :Yes
02 是否在交往? :No
03 现在幸福吗? :Well...hard to tell...
04 如果上天给你勇气，最想做什么事? :Apply for the Post of SAM student council president.
05 如果有天,你爱的人跟你告白的话? :抱住他(haiz..)

幸福套餐 NO。3♥
01 点你的人是:慧莉
02 他是你的 :朋友
03 他的个性? :活泼,开朗,可爱的小妹妹
04 认识他多久? :<1 year
05 你觉得他怎样? :hmm...she's got a good voice...
06 你想对他说什么 :thank u for tagging me...u r a nice girl...=)

幸福套餐 NO。4♥
01 最爱的节目 :None to speak of
02 最爱的音乐 :Music is My soul, so don't ask me this question.
03 最爱的季节 :Every season speaks of my mood....so no favourites...
04 最爱的卡通 :Erm....dunnoo....but i like cartooons..coz i'm kiddie...XD
05 最爱的人 :家人,朋友
06 最爱的颜色 :白色 and black
07 最爱的国家 :不懂哦
08 最爱的天气 :有少少太阳跟风的

幸福套餐 NO。5♥
01 如果上天给你三个愿望:心想事成咯~什么都有~哈哈
02 你是很专一的人吗 :No..i should be honest to myself and say...No...because I'm a flower...
03 最深刻的回忆? :感动,幸福的时刻(agree with EJae)
04 你是个很有信心的人吗? :On the outside, Yes. On the inside. 2x(Yes)...XD
05 你很爱微笑吗 : =) (nope...should be=D)
06 如果你要放弃你现在的生活，你愿意吗 :I WANT 100种生活....so...No.
07 妄想什么样的生活 :无忧无虑,乱闯祸又不必负责任的生活(agreed too)
08 是否横刀夺爱才是爱 :不一定,可是如果是真爱的话,再怎么利锐的刀也割不走吧(yes i agree too)

调卷到此结束
‘点人者请至于被点者的留言版’ 告知被点名了.
I want to tag:
no one....simply because i don't want vicious cycles like tat to continue....people spend time typing stuff that no one reads unless the reader is a fan or likes her/him....which won't happen to me coz no one likes me...T.T

After weeks of procrastination...

2009-01-10T04:32:00.003+08:00

Ever since my computer broke down...My blog's been really dead...but even if i did have my computer....err...I still wouldn't be able to blog....the reason's that simple....I'm a Taylor's student.

Life has been hectic...I've never experienced something like that....Go to school, Do homework, revise, get knocked out at the end of the day due to weariness...That's how I go thru every single day....

And I miss my dear very much....I think she knows it...

-kiDDiE-

A TV series to catch

2008-12-21T21:49:00.003+08:00

Simply put, I'm not one who watches Hong Kong Tv Series. But I saw mama watching it this afternoon and, since there was nothing to do, watched a small segment of the show. The storyline was really intriguing and it got me asking mama "Where's Disc 1?"

Some of you may have already watched it. 《东山飘雨西关晴》 or 《When Easterly Showers Fall On The Sunny West》

Starring:

方宝琦--李诗韵饰潘卓兴--马德钟饰
叶向晴--佘诗曼饰
庄凤仪--汪明荃饰

It's quite a really good Drama Series. It's got a really nice storyline, albeit a little easy to figure out.

It won't win the Drama of the Year award, but give it a watch if you've got the time. It's definitely a good drama with some unexpected twists in the story. xD

-kiDDiE-

Sleepless Nights

2008-12-14T04:55:00.002+08:00

It's been so long...i really need a doctor...or maybe just a hug from her...
coz I just can't seem to sleep...Insomnia maybe...
Or I'm just being an idiot and making myself miserable...

or maybe...the problem's just...me...

always smiling yet miserable inside....

I'll still fall for you, you know...I might even fall for you..this night...all over again...
"Fall For You" - Secondhand Serenade

-kiDDiE-

Love for Sale

2008-12-12T02:39:00.002+08:00

Countless times have I been moved by a certain song or musical track....this post is no exception....
販賣溫柔 Love for Sale.... wow it's a nice song...the singer packs a punch too....with a really flexible vocal range....i found myself falling in love with his sexy voice...

Who's gonna buy my Love? I'm waiting...

-kiDDiE- who's still lost in the sea of troubles concerning relationship problems....

2008-12-09T15:51:00.003+08:00

啊啊啊啊！！！！

这是我第一次用华文打 post....
所以呢....从今以后都有可能会用华文打post 吧.....
for those who 每天吵着说我的blog只用鸡肠...

算了.....现在很烦！！！别来烦我....
哇靠！！！我做什么干你们屁事啊？？靠！！
搞不懂你们这种垃圾。。。干！！！

-kiDDiE-

Jumbled thoughts and a book to promote XD

2008-12-01T22:44:00.003+08:00

Kvetha Fricaya. Greetings, Friends.
Tomorrow's another day for most people. But to me, it's a turning point.
A step-up phase, crossing over from high school life into the unknown.

Well, most of the time, I wouldn't pester myself with these thoughts...but tomorrow's the ending yet a new beginning.

It's the final trip. One of the last chances for us to really do anything together as a gang. My feelings are mixed.
When i'm lying on my bed, with these thoughts running through my head.
Well, it's unavoidable that this should come. High school never was meant to last forever.

To those who are furthering their studies. Sé onr sverdar sitja hvass.
Literally, may your swords stay sharp. I gleaned this piece of the ancient language from reading the Inheritance series, which proved entertaining. I hope Christopher Paolini Releases the fourth book as soon as possible. I shiver in anticipation. XD

These are the 3 that have so far been published. I strongly recommend a read.
The Inheritance Series :
Book I : Eragon
Book II : Eldest
Book III : Brisingr(Which happens to mean Fire in the ancient language)

Book IV has yet to be released. But i really recommend this series. Christopher Paolini already managed to get this Bestseller published when he was 19. Amazing, huh?

O, btw, the movie "Eragon" sucks..seriously...don't even watch it. Especially after reading the book. You'll curse the film with profanity in the ancient language. XD

until then, Atra guliä un ilian tauthr ono un atra ono waíse sköliro fra rauthr.

Signing off, onr Fricai ono kiDDiE-finiarel.
XD

A shocking realization

2008-11-29T03:28:00.002+08:00

Actually, it suddenly dawned on me that....
no one's been to my blog in a long long time....
on second thought...make that 10 more"longs"...
maybe i should just close it down....blogging's not my forte anyway.....
well, if there are no more than 3 comments in this post...
i will close it down, sadly...(not asking too much am I?)

Well, on another unrelated matter, now that SPM's finished...
Life has gotten even more hectic than before....
what with all the plans to get a driver's license, get an IELTS cert, apply for college, finish that whole err....
pile of books that i previously purchased...a hectic lifestyle indeed....
wait...it doesn't end there...there's also that song I was writing..it's almost done..and i tried recording it with my own voice..didn't sound too bad....

Last thing...brush up on me english and japanese....

That's all folks...XD

-kiDDiE-

The Final Day

2008-11-27T17:08:00.002+08:00

Here we are, the final day
Here ends High School, what to say
Everyone's happy, spirits are gay
But I'm afraid, I don't comprendé
coz it's obvious, good bye's the only way

Nothing's gonna be left, except memories of yesterday,
We'd hang out and go somewhere to play,
and you know I'll always remember your birthday,
Yours in october and mine in May,
somehow today, my sky's so gray.

So let's just hope
These memories never fade away.

-kiDDiE-

Love Story

2008-11-19T20:52:00.002+08:00

I'm back after some time...but this time to recommend a nice song to you folks....
Love Story - Taylor Swift <<Fearless>> It's a pretty good album....worth a listen.
Love Story is just one of the songs in the album....but my favourite so far....
If tears were directly proportional to gauging one's wealth...I would be the richest man on earth...T.T
Here's the lyrics by the way...Hope you see this....will you be my love?

Love Story - Taylor Swift (Original Juliet Version)

We were both young, when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I’m standing there, on a balcony of summer air

I see the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
You say hello, little did I know…

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said “stay away from Juliet”
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don’t go…
And I said…

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone
I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess,
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet, because we’re dead if he knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while
Oh, Ohhh

Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said “stay away from Juliet”
But you were everything to me
I was begging you, please don’t go…
And I said

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone
I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

Romeo save me, they’re trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it’s real
Don’t be afraid, we’ll make it out of this mess
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes
Oh, Ohhh…

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo save me, I’ve been feeling so alone
I keep waiting, for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don’t know what to think
He kneels to the ground and pulled out a ring and said

Marry me Juliet, you’ll never have to be alone
I love you, and that’s all I really know
I talked to your dad-you’ll pick out a white dress
It’s a love story, baby just say…yes…
Oh, Ohhh… Oh, Oh, Ohhh…
coz We were both young when I first saw you.

Love Story - Taylor Swift (my Romeo Version)

We were both young, when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
You're standing there, on a balcony of summer air

I see the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I slowly make my way through the crowd
and say hello, little did you know…

That I was Romeo, I was throwing pebbles
And your daddy said “stay away from Juliet”
but you were crying on the staircase
Begging me please don't go…
So I said…

Juliet let me, take you where we'll be alone
I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run
I’ll be the prince and you’ll be the princess,
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

So I sneak into the garden to see you
We keep quiet, because we’re dead if he knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while
Oh, Ohhh

Cause I was Romeo, you were a scarlet letter,
And your daddy said “stay away from Juliet”
But you were everything to me
You were begging me, please don’t go…
And you said

Romeo take me, somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

Romeo save me, they’re trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it’s real
Don’t be afraid, we’ll make it out of this mess
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes
Oh, Ohhh…

I know you're tired of waiting
Wondering if I was ever coming around
Your faith in me was fading
When you met me in the outskirts of town
And you said

Romeo save me, I’ve been feeling so alone
I keep waiting, for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don’t know what to think
I knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said

Marry me Juliet, you’ll never have to be alone
I love you, and that’s all I really know
I talked to your dad-you’ll pick out a white dress
It’s a love story, baby just say…yes…

Oh, Ohhh… Oh, Oh, Ohhh…
coz We were both young when I first saw you.

-kiDDiE- just let me be your prince...

Worries here, worries there, Frustrations tossed around everywhere...

2008-11-01T03:19:00.004+08:00

Tonight was a cold and lonely night....ask anyone and u'll noe i sleep at absurd hours nowadays...maybe an after-effect of studying for those major exams before....now i can't sleep at normal hours....

i was listening to music since it's wat i really like doing most...it's almost an inseparable part of my life now...i happened to shuffle my music that night....and i heard 3 most wonderful songs... 3 in a row...
1.) Zac Efron and Vanessa Anne Hudgens - Can I have This Dance
2.) Mayday - You're Not Really Happy
3.) Kenji Wu - Wu Ke Qun

then only i noticed. I've been a real wreck lately. no productivity whatsoever. sleep, eat, read (not exam stuff).

I've got a future to think about. And most prominently, my SPM. It's just round the bend and I don't seem to have a mood to touch those books. Makes me worry and gradually frustrated. Why do I seem to lose all my adrenaline when it comes down to it....haiz....

also, granting that it's my last year at Chong Hwa, my focus suddenly shifted to my time at Chong Hwa. All these years. No bloody achievements. Always seemed so big and famous. Yet, small and insignificant as I worked behind the scenes...Somewhere where nobody noes...

All of a sudden. A surge of sorrow hit me. My pillow. Wet. Tears started flowing without warning. Just because I thought of leaving my friends. But that made me think twice. Who are the real friends in my life? i may seem to have many. but none are real to me. At least, that's wat i think. Just like wat an idiotic no-life b*st*rd like me will think.

There's no end to the time I've wasted up until now. Wasted a whole 6 years at Chong Hwa. Finally gonna graduate. So what? Wish I could turn time back. Make things better. Not leave so many regrets behind.

My reminiscences in this school. Limited. So Limited I could stuff them into the cracks of a fly's a**. What am I getting at? This is another unconstructive post. Ignore it if u will. I don't care. No one does. I'm invisible. Always the useless one. But who noes what I go through behind all that.

Give me some advice, friends. I'm in stuck at a crossroads that branches off into more crossroads. I'm having a headache. But I doubt I'll be able to sleep.

Ciao.

-kiDDiE- lost in thought.

Double Tag

2008-10-27T00:05:00.003+08:00

This time I'm doing a double tag. One from Haobing n one from Susu...

Haobing's Tag
1. The last person to tag you was?
Hopeless Boy

2. Your relationship with him/her?
Gay. LoLxz joking. if he saw this he sure kill me...

3. Your 5 impression towards him/her?
i. lazy
ii. songs supplier
iii. downloader
iv. dangerous driver(pls dont get into his car even if he asks u to)
v. nite stalker

4. The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you ?
give me Mayday's New Album

5. The most memorable words that he/she has say to you ?
Jia Jie...petrol ar....

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will...
Commit suicide and then go complain to Hades.

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
Hack his comp n clear his songs.

8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on...
No chance to answer this question. so...no deal.

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
Quarrel over songs.

10. The most desirable things to do for him/her is...
Download many songs and give me.

11. Overall impression towards him/her is...
suan ler ba....duno wat to say oso....

12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you ?
One word. Noisy.

13. The character for you for yourself is ?
Flexible Adapter. Depends on the situation. Jester in some, cool n composed in some, idiotic in some. Prepare to see the many faces of kiDDiE...

14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is ?
haiz....fat.

15. If you’ve a chance to choose how a person you wanna be…
I'm quite happy with who I am now. but I wouldn't say no to better grades...

16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them.
Does anyone like that even exist?

17. Ten people to tag-
i. Jackie
ii.EJ
iii. Andeline
iv. kaixuan
v. Linky
vi. Yozer
vii. Peinee
viii. Rachel
ix. Starfishy
x.weewee

18. Who is number 2 having a relationship with ?
erm....none that i noe of currently...

19. Is 3 a male or a female ?
female. a human girl, to be more precise.

20. If number 7 and 10 got together, would that be a good thing ?
definitely not!

21. How about 5 and 8 ?
ugh....Lesbians...

22. What is number 1 studying for ?
for SPM

23. When was the last time you had a chat with them ?
not long ago

24. Is number 4 single ?
I definitely do not doubt it.XD

25. Say something about number 2.
haiz....so RD.....very noisy too. always begs me to send her songs.XD

SuSu's Tag
Tagged by SuSusususususu XD
點名：
壹-Susu
贰-Haobing
参-XiuTing
肆-PoiPoi
伍-PeiNee
陆-Jackie
柒-Yozer

★规矩
1.照內心想法打。
2.被點不可不寫，打完之後要記得通知對方哦。

【問卷大調查】
覺得〔壹〕如何?
我的宝贝~
〔貳〕如何?
我的好朋友
〔參〕如何?
很好的女孩。。。
〔肆〕如何?
很让我害怕的女生。。。。>"<
〔伍〕如何?
很可爱的女生！
〔陆〕如何?
很美的女生
〔柒〕如何?
很RD的SH副班长

【壹】誰?

1:傳給你の人是誰?
我的宝贝~susu
2:他是你の寶貝嗎?　
还用说吗？？？一千个“是”啦~
3:你認識他多久?
不到一年
4:他长得怎么样?
美丽之最

【貳】友情

1:說出你最好の朋友?
没有
2:你の寶貝很多個嗎?
没有
3:不會討厭同性戀?
反对女的。赞同男的。因为如果女的就少了两个女的让我追。男的就少两个竞争对手。哈哈。。。。
4:你會喜歡上好朋友嗎?
不无可能。

【參】愛情

1:你有情人嗎?　
没有。
2:浪漫の地方?
没有。
3:你曾經親過你情人嗎?
没有。
4:對情人說過最甜蜜の一句話?
没有。
5:想跟你の情人在一起到啥時?
不曾有过，现在没有，以后不会有。

【肆】飲食

1:妳最愛吃の食物?
Maggi Mee
2:妳最愛喝の飲料?
Maggi 吃完后剩下的汤
3:喜歡麥當勞這個地方嗎?
非常
4:愛吃烤肉嗎?　
非常
5:愛吃火鍋嗎?　
非常

【伍】興趣
1:喜歡啥運動?
田径
2:接上題,為啥喜歡?　
速度
3:最愛跟誰一起運動?
我的“她”
4:你最喜歡做の事?　
与“她”聊天
5:喜歡跑步嗎?
喜欢
【陸】雜七雜八

1:最愛的節目類型(or節目)?
Heroes
2:乘上題,為啥喜歡?
好看
3:即時通幾號?
虾米来A？A塞吃？
4:是女的?
是~
5:有潔癖嗎?
绝对！
6:有自閉嗎?　
绝对有！！！！！！
7:同志追求你會接受嗎?　
绝对不会！！！！
8:戀愛感覺好嗎?　
唉~问错人啦。。。。
9:鞋子穿幾號?
不懂。。
10:愛的明星?
BoA....还有很多我很欣赏的明星....不过只是欣赏而已....迟早会超越...XD

**用了1 个小时做这个tag

Yay!!! The MPH Warehouse Sales!!!

2008-10-24T20:15:00.006+08:00

Exactly this morning I left home and drove to Section 13, where MPH was having a huge Warehouse Sales. There were so many books and so little people I was starting to worry there might be a poor selection of books. I'll Let you guess how much I spent. Here's the List.

1. Electric God By Catherine Ryan Hyde RM 5

2. The Twilight Saga(consists of four books) by Stephenie Meyer RM 102

3. Bones To Ashes by Kathy Reichs RM 15
4. Break To Bones by Kathy Reichs RM 15

5. Eragon, Book I of the Inheritance Series by Christopher Paolini RM 23

6. Eldest, Book II of the Inheritance Series(Eragon) by Christopher Paolini RM 20 only!!!

7. Brisingr, Book III of the Inheritance Series(Eragon) by Christopher Paolini RM 58

8. The Diamond Girls by Jacqueline Wilson RM 5 (for my sis)
9. The Spook's Mistake by Joseph Delaney RM 15
10. Thief of Time by Terry Pratchett RM 20
11. Reaper Man by Terry Pratchett RM 20
12. Mort by Terry Pratchett RM 20
13. The Hunt Begins (Book 1 of the Great Hunt) by Robert Jordan RM 10
14. New Threads in the Pattern (Book 2 of The Great Hunt) by Robert Jordan RM 10
14. Barry Trotter and The Shameless Parody by Michael Gerber RM 20
15. When You Lunch With The Emperor (The Adventures of Ludwig Bemelmans) unknown author RM 33

16. Heroes a Novel : The Untold Story of Hiro and Charlie[Saving Charlie](Limited Edition) byAury Wallington RM 20
17. The Hobbit Limited Edition Collector's Boxset by J.R.R. Tolkien RM 30 only!!!!

Grand Total : RM 441 [burned a hole in me pocket ]

not too shabby, eh? considering the amount of books I bought....err....the year end holiday will be full of books!!!>"<....(now that's an understatement....)

-kiDDiE-

A solitary existence

2008-10-14T06:26:00.002+08:00

Day in day out, I thought I had many friends.
Well, turns out I do. But only on the surface. I feel no warmth, from anybody, or even inanimate objects in this world. Even my immediate family. They give me no feeling of home. "Home" is just a place to rest my body. Day by day, my soul grows more and more corrupted. Maybe I'll grow up to be one of those bad guys depicted in movies...

It just comes to prove that my theory's right. There's been a short break from school, about a week or so...my class organised a few activities, my friends organised study groups. None of them were I informed of. I mean, what the f*ck. Am I invisible?

I can only say, I resign

to this world i had been blind

but now the truth is revealed, voila

a sanctuary for masked fiends, a fake nirvana

I wonder, am I misremembered?

with the unfurling of my life story, this theory is proved

Always the one forgotten,

Just a name, a face in the crowd.

And I'll taste every moment and live it out loud

I know, this is the time to be

more than just a name,

or a face in the crowd,

I know This is the Time, this is the time of my Life.

"Time of My Life - David Cook"

I'm alone.

-kiDDiE-

Blablabla

2008-10-14T05:54:00.002+08:00

This here's a link to an edu website for all my friends who are taking SPM and STPM this year...hope it helps.

http://edu.joshuatly.com

On a side note....
Chance, Fate and Destiny....
These three things are somehow intertwined together....
"I'll take my Chances - The Click Five"

It's a good song...go listen to it.
=]

-kiDDiE-

The Jester

2008-10-02T22:57:00.002+08:00

Woe is me, the Jester of sorrow

serving a princess whom I cherish so

and end my performance with a gleeful bow

no one sees my heart bleeding, though

I like to pace around the park, humming a lullaby,

when water falls sadly from the sky,

what am I trying to imply,

so that no one can see me cry

To her, I am but a clown

a harlequin, dressed from head to toe in brown

whose rustic antics so comedical it can turn her frown

into a smile more dazzling than the most beautiful crown.

"I like to walk in the rain, so that no one can see me cry."

-kiDDiE-

Un-Importance

2008-10-01T22:59:00.002+08:00

I still feel rather unimportant in everyone's lives...who i wanna be is someone...who can really make an impact on some1 else's life...leave a mark in their lives...never be forgotten...and not this useless piece of trash that i am now....haiz....

no poems this time....just some random ranting...

-kiDDiE-

Erm....just something to relieve my stress.....

2008-09-24T20:10:00.001+08:00

Here's a new poem...argh....sometimes these exams are so stressful i just feel like throwing up....yup....during the exams....>"<

Titled "The Trials"

Silence, No Sound,
Boredom, Knows No Bounds,
Lethargy, All Around,
Here Sat A boy, On His Face, A Frown

Again, Silence For Miles,
Boredom And Lethargy, Meanwhile,
It's Not Like You Don't Know It's The Trials,
But This Time, On His Face, The boy Had A Smile

This Is What We Call An Exam,
Where You Either Live Or Be Damned,
Your Own Fate Lies In Your Own Hands,
A Decision That Might Cause It To Crumble To Dust And Turn To Sand

Hear, The Mechanical Rhythm Of Jotting Pens,
See, Students Drift Off To Distant Lands,
Smell, The Viscid Pressure Exerted On Your Head,
Before The Trials Have Ended, We'd Be Long Since Dead

Actually, It's Just Another Stupid Test,
To Make Sure Students Get No Rest,
Some Of Them, Well, They Did Study,
But Ended up Failing History Inevitably.

Please do comment on this one....
-kiDDiE-

One last post before I disappear

2008-09-22T00:08:00.004+08:00

This should be my final post in 1-2 months....since I'll be missing from the blogosphere.....Literally.....

I took an IQ test that day and it showed me having an IQ of 148...this is the Globally recognized Intelligence Interval Table.....and WOW...I am a genius....which means i belong to a group of genii who take up less than 1% of the world....congrats to my self.

O yea, wish me luck guys...The trials are coming up....I'll need your blessings.

Cheers,
-kiDDiE-