Down

to one last breath.

-kead-

But

I kinda like you. like alot.

A little too much.

Maybe too much.

-kead-

So

Very Tired.

But I'm coming home. With a big smile on my face.
I'm gonna tell you. I survived hell.
And won.

I promise.

-kead-

讓

自己失望 比別人讓我失望.

更失望.

I let myself down again.

我. 就是那個賣魚的小男孩.

-kead-

Maybe we're not meant to be.

I can't give you what you want and It's killing me.

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe
That's theres no way out for you and me

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

Sigh. :(

-kead-

領悟

開始自己去買衣服之後. 才發現原來我一直都在穿名牌. 只是自己一直都把它看得很輕. 沒有去明白父母的感受.
原來. 離鄉背井到莫斯科後. 才發現. 我在馬是多麼的無法無天. 因為有父母罩.
現在爛攤子. 都要自己收拾. 才真正了解. 其實我還沒長大. 只是那時候的我. 自以為無敵了.
感覺自己好像走了那麼遠. 可是其實還是只是在人生的起跑線上徘徊. 不敢往前跑.
才知道 原來我一直都把很多事情看得很理所當然.
才知道 原來我還不適合當別人的依靠.
才知道 我一直都辜負了我父母.
才知道 什麼叫朋友.
才知道 我好沒用.

-kead-

Second Chance

Instead of holding you
I was holding out.

And I really treasure my roomies.
They're my bros. But sometimes stuff just.

Doesn't Make Sense Anymore

-kead-